New Beginnings?

2012 has been a great year no doubt. I've gained friends, Lost a first love, Got TRULY heartbroken, Lost a friend who I used to call my best friend, Thought I found "The guy", Became a lot closer to old friends, Went away on vacation with my friend and her parents, Met Lauren ,Went to highschool, Started becoming more active on YouTube, Made a Blog, Got told my dreams aren't as crazy as everyone says they are, Tinychatted with Abraham Lim and Tyler Ford, Became a part of my first ever High school Musical "Footloose", and so many, many more things.

I can say that I'm ready for 2013 and I hope it's going to be "My Year". I mean surely sometimes life doesn't always work out the way we want it to. I'm just hoping that through all the heartbreak of 2012 it doesn't happen again in 2013. Through life I guess everyone gains friends, that means that we also loose some. I lost a friend who I used to call my best friend. We still talk but we never hang out anymore or do anything like we used to. I guess it happens to everyone. The only good thing about this was that through it I actually gained more friends and became so close to them.

Everyone has a first love. That one that you wish to be with forever. I was lucky enough to have mine in 2012. Things change, and so do people. The relationship lasted 8 months and then it was gone. I lost him and a friend. However, I started talking to him again only to find out he had a girlfriend. I was completely heartbroken but we can't always have what we want. There was the time I had truly thought that I found "The Guy" only to find months later I rushed out of a relationship and I still had feelings for my first love.

I gained the guts to go on vacation with a friend. I get homesick and I miss my mom when I'm gone away from her for a long time. That's why I never went on vacation with a friend before. I'm so glad I went though because I met an inspiration. I met Lauren of Someonelikeyou18. This also made me so much closer to the friend I went with.

I experienced High school for the first time. I started becoming much more active on YouTube. I reached over 900 views on one single video. So close to crossing off something off my bucket list. (1,000 views on one video.) I with the help of a friend got a blog and started writing posts.

I tinychatted with influences of mine; Tyler Ford and Abraham Lim. I was told by Tyler that my dreams aren't as crazy as everyone says they are. One last thing. I became a part of My first ever High school Musical "Footloose". I'm super excited for rehearsal to start and I'm ready for 2013.

I love a lot of things about this past year and yes there are other things that I disliked about this year but Life can't always go the way you would like it to. I'm ready for the new year and ready to see what it brings to me.

With much love, 

Kristina Rene'

Ps- Happy New Year!! 

Being taught things.

I really can't explain, through the years music, tv shows, Youtube, musicals.. They have all taught me so much. Music and musicals has taught me how to live, it's taught me that no matter what I'll get through everything that happens to me. It helps me through the ups and downs in life. It helps me when friends and my parents can't. One good thing about it though is that whenever it actually hits you, you don't feel the pain. I love music, I always have. I wouldn't be where I am without it. Most importantly music has taught me how to live.

Tv shows. What kind of TV shows? The inspirational ones to me of course. The ones that can bring my favorite things together. Glee is one of these shows. It's amazing to me. It has taught me things. One of the most important though is that I should never give up. I've been watching the first season and I'm getting to the second one. (Just got them on DVD for Christmas). The first season is so much drama and there is so many things that everyone is faced with but they get through it and never give up. Yes, I know it usually doesn't happen the way it does in Tv shows. Still there is the whole that it happens to everybody, well not all situations happen to everyone but still some do. The one thing you can't do is give up. That's what Glee has taught me. Yes the Glee Project is another one of these shows, don't get me started on what it has taught me though.

Youtube, more specifically Youtubers have taught me many things in the many years I've watched them all. Shay Carl for one. He made me really second guess what I really want to do with my life. If you know his story you know what I'm talking about. He made me think that I need to go after my dreams. Not be stuck doing something that I don't want to do for the rest of my life. I need to find that and start heading for it. There are so many other Youtubers that have taught me to go forward with my dreams.

Sometimes you just have to hold on...

Now, normally I would write a post about something exciting but, I can't do that today. It's weird though, this issue usually donesn't bother me as much as it has today, I don't know what it is. I'm not gonna share this issue I'm just gonna write about it.

Why can't you be there for me? Why have I not talked to you for 4 years, Why haven't I seen you for 4 or 5 years? Why am I not important to you? Why do you only want to talk to me when you want something? Why can't I come visit and not have to stay with you for a year? Why do you lie to me half the time? Why are you still with her if you fight half the time? Why are you still with her when you don't agree with things she does? Why? Just why,

I really don't understand. These are all the questions that run through my mind sometimes but most importantly just now. I don't get it, why can't you be in my life. It'd be nice. I'd like to have you here to actually care about what I do. You act like I don't exist. I'm sorry that I was born. I came into your life for a reason. Why can't you accept that. Why do you have to ignore me.

I've sent you letters, I've sent you e-mails. Nothing ever works for you. You don't respond.. you don't care. Why don't you care? I just don't understand. I'm not going to let it get me down. You let people control you. Most importantly you let HER control you. Don't you get that sometimes there are people in your life who care about you but, you want nothing to do with them because of her. You just don't care. Well soon you will care.

I haven't had you in my life for quite some time, and I'm okay with that because through it all I gained someone who cares about me, who supports me, who will be there for me, who will be there no matter what happens. That's not you though. It won't ever be unless you choose to change the way you act. To actually talk to me. As of now, you're gone. You won't be the one who will be there for every important moment in my life. If you change, maybe I'll change my mind. As of now though you are gone, I want nothing to do with you, her, or anyone related to her.

If, you're reading this, well, you might know who you are. If you don't know than that's quite a shame. If you're a friend and you understand what I mean that's great but most won't get it until I truly decide to open up about it.

Yours Truly

Kristina Rene'

 

ps, sorry this is so sad I promise, I will post a happier blog post soon. 

You had to Leave Just like Everyone Else

As people we all have at least one influence. Sometimes you have many for various reasons. I've had plenty of musical influences throughout my life. The thing that hurts the most though is when you have to loose the one that you are closest to, the one that is the main influence for something (In my case music)

I lost my grandpa. It was one of the hardest things that could've happened to me. Surely, I've lost people from my family but none that were this inspiring to me. He was a talented man. He is one of the main reasons for me becoming interested in music. If it weren't for him and various other people in my family than I more than likely wouldn't be singing, wouldn't be interested in music. I would more than likely be playing sports or something.

I'm really glad to have a family that is so musically oriented; my grandpa, my mom, my dad, my aunt, my uncle, well you get the point. If it weren't for them, I more than likely wouldn't be singing. wouldn't be doing music, wouldn't be on the crazy journey to get discovered.

My grandpa was a very talented and inspiring man. He was in the military,he fought in Vietnam, was a quarter master of military bands, he met plenty of famous people (Frank Sinatra, cast of three's company and more) He could play any instrument he picked up. Even though he could play pretty much every instrument he preferred percussion. Like I said pretty talented.

I was really devastated when we got the call saying that he was gone. Both me and my mom just broke out in tears crying and the worst part for me was when we had to tell my little sister the next morning when she woke up. I honestly didn't know how to deal with it, he was gone,my main influence for music, he was just gone. It's strange though, I didn't want to go to the funeral or the viewing, I didn't think I could handle it. I went anyway and I made it through. I'm glad I did though, I learned two things that day;

1.) He couldn't have looked anymore younger in his military uniform, he had said he wanted to be buried in it and I was sure glad he did say it.

2.) Music and life are exactly the same. A song eventually has to end and so does life. Even if that one piece of music has a repeat sign in it, it's only designed to repeat once. Life is very very precious so live it to the fullest, just don't take it to seriously, no one gets out alive anyway.

I know that everyone has to leave sometime, we are put on this earth to do something make something of ourselves and eventually everyone's time runs out. We can't all live forever. I've grown to accept the fact that he's gone. Sometimes I will break out in tears just thinking about him because I miss him and I know that he's gone. I just wish I could tell him about all the things I accomplish musically but I can't. It's hard moving on and finding closure, but, I've made it through and I'm proud of myself for doing so. I never forget about him though I know that he's watching over me and being there for everything I do. I know he's proud of me for doing so.

So to all the people who loose their greatest influences, or just an influence for something they do in life, it'll be alright. You will get through it. Everyone at some point in their life goes through this and everyone gets through it. Just keep that in mind.

With much love,
Kristina Rene'

Thanksgiving

Hello everyone!(: I hope that you all had the most fantastic Thanksgiving dinners and just a wonderful day yesterday. I will say, I had a really good dinner because of my dad and my mom. I helped too though. Yesterday was just so wonderful and I was happy to have my family with me. I took pictures of food and I was going to Vlog Black Friday shopping with my mom but that didn't work out in the way I had intended it too. So here are the pictures of the dinner I ate yesterday.

I just love crescent rolls. we usually don't make them for thanksgiving but I wanted to change it up a little. 

There really isn't much to this picture but I still like it.

Turkey!

Stuffing is my absolute favorite!

My sister is obsessed with this stuff and she made me take a picture

My napkin and such. 

Cut turkey.

Corn isn't my favorite but oh well. 

Place setting

Food before

Food After

This is from black friday. it's peaceful driving in town with no cars.

I'm not a bug fan of pumpkin pie so I took pictures of my sisters

Whipped cream on the other hand is good.

So, Like I said, I'm hoping you all had a great thanksgiving. I'm going to list some things I am thankful for.

1.) Family, They are all my supporters for everything I do and without them, I wouldn't be here. They make me smile, laugh and most importantly they love me and I love them.

2.) Friends. They support me. They are always here for me. I always have fun times with my friends and I love them all. They are all different and inspire me to do so many things.

3.) Music. Jeez, If I didn't have music, I'd be dead. Music taught me so many things throughout the years. The most important thing music taught me though was how to live.

4.) The house over my head.

5.) Clothes

6.) Education

7.) Troops that support our country.

There are so many things I am thankful for and I wouldn't have it any other way.

With much much love,

Kristina Rene'

Everyone gets scared, Everyone will be scared.

Charlie McDonnel who is by far one of my most favorite youtubers recently posted a video entitled "I'm Scared" In this he talks about how scared he is. He also admits to not liking most of the content he makes anymore because he feels it isn't good enough. Charlie, all I can say is that you are you, if you weren't do you think you'd have millions of subscribers? You were one of the first people that I ever watched on Youtube and I'm proud to say that I've stuck with you. You became an inspiration to me and I was able to introduce you to many friends and therefore you became an inspiration to them as well.

Everyone is scared, You won't meet a human that isn't scared about what people think, You aren't alone. It happens to almost everyone I know. I think that being scared of what people think only makes us stronger. As people we learn to grow and learn how to get over the fact that sometimes people don't like a lot of things. I get scared every time I post a video because I don't want people to think I can't sing, I don't want people to judge me. It happens to everyone and no matter what happens it won't go away. We can ignore it, but it won't go away. No matter what there are going to be people that don't like something you do or something you say.

Charlie, you mean the world to a lot of people, including me. I've never met you in my entire life but watching you throughout the years on youtube makes me feel like I have. It might to a lot of people, being a youtuber you are able to open up to so many people and make them feel inspired to do many things.

Let me just list some things that I would have never done if it wasn't for you:
1.) Post Youtube videos; I was scared, I didn't want to do it, seeing you make people laugh and have an amazing time while making them made me want to be able to do the same.
2.) I would have never known what Doctor Who was; I think you may have opened up a lot of people to Doctor Who but It's became one of my favorite shows and if it weren't for you, I wouldn't know what it was.
3.) Introduction of new Youtubers; throughout the years of watching your channel you became friends with many youtubers and therefore I started watching a lot of their videos, all because of you.
4.) I wouldn't have made and inspiration/ wall of stuff; Seeing your wall of stuff made me so inspired to make one and on my bucket list is to have a whole wall filled with stuff.
5.) I wouldn't have a great male inspiration; There are many male youtubers out there but you are my favorite, you introduced me to a new life, introduced me to many things that if it weren't for you well, I wouldn't know what or who they are.

So Charlie McDonnell if you are reading this, I'd just like to say, everyone is scared. It happens. Whatever you do don't let it get you down. As a person you just have to accept the fact that people might not like what you do. Sometimes people leave and then new people come along. However, you have many people that have never left your side, never stopped believing in you, never stopped watching your videos and well, one of these people is me.

Yours Truly, 

Kristina Rene'

Closing the book and starting a new one.

Today I learned that things don't happen the way you want them too. Well, I've always known this but, I experienced a true heart break. I was told that a guy that I had dated for 8 months and broke up with for really stupid reasons, that I still have feelings for has a girlfriend. I really didn't know what to do, I read the message and I just froze and I wasn't myself the rest of the day. I cried, and cried. What else was I supposed to do? I didn't want to but I had to. Now that I'm done crying and I thought to myself about what he said when our relationship was going down hill that if we found other people we weren't meant to be together, I recorded videos, hung out with my sister, the usual things I do when I'm sad. I just couldn't get over the heartbreak.

I thought more and more, and then hated myself for breaking up with him and dating another guy, If I didn't do that, would there still be a chance for us? I just wish I could go back in time and change it. I cried more, as I'm writing this I'm holding back tears. I have to thank him though, he told me he wanted to be friends and stay that way. The friendship I've had with this guy was much more amazing to me than the 8 months we spent together as a couple. It made me realize that I don't need him as a boyfriend or someone to still have feelings for, I need him as a friend. I can honestly think that I'm gonna be okay, I'm gonna make it through this.

Sometimes, you just have to know to close the book or keep turning the pages. It's time for me to close the book on this relationship and looking for that one guy that I know I will love through everything, who I can tell everything to and not be ashamed of myself, who I can be myself around, who will be himself around me, who I can be extremely weird with, who I can take pictures with, and most of all have him love me for me. I'm going to find it some day. I think though he's been around for the past four years. Everything I just described sounds like my guy best friend. I don't want to date him though because I don't want anything to happen to our relationship that we have now. If anything happened to our friendship I'd be sad, I'm sure that we'd both have the strength in it to be able to still be best friends and not have it be completely awkward.

I'm just ready to close the book and start a new one.

Yours Truly, 

Kristina Rene'

  

Blake Jenner on Glee (Gleecap type thing)

So, as most know Blake Jenner was on Glee last night!! I had a major fan girl moment when I saw him for this first time on T.V. since TGP. I'm really just going to do a Gleecap and well explain what I liked and didn't like.

First, I really really really REALLY loved Blaine's version of Hopelessly Devoted to You. Even though this song is sung by a girl in Grease, I really loved how they used it to explain Blaine's and Kurt's situation. It was truly amazing to me.

Second, I was like waiting for Blake to come on for a while and then when Finn went to the Football field, I knew that's where we would catch a glimpse of him. I literally screamed when I saw him and he was dancing and it was pretty funny.

Third, I really loved how Blake and Cory got to sing together and I LOVED the song that they sang together. I was really surprised to hear how much Blake's voice had changed. It is better in my opinion. I was also listening really close to Cory's voice too and I have to say that he has gotten so so so much better from season one. I really loved the glee version of Juke Box Hero, Who doesn't like classic rock?

Fourth, Blake's acting! I honestly think that he is one of the best guy actors ever! I'm actually really glad he got put on glee because the part he has, well, he nails it! Blake was by far the best actor on TGP and his acting has improved, which seems hard because he was already really good to begin with. I guess it just came with the time he had to work with directors and such versus on the glee project it was basically what you already knew how to do.

Fifth, I think Marley needs to be Nellie Veitenheimer needs to be Nellie! Especially because I think they are going to have Marley and Blake be an item. I honestly just picture Nellie because I think that they need her for that part. I don't know if they casted Marley after TGP or before but, if after I honestly think they used Nellie to shape the part.

Sixth, I really wasn't a big fan of the version of Everybody talks, Mainly because I don't like kitty. I think that this song needs a more rough voice and not such a happy go lucky voice like puckerman. Now his brother Puck would be so much better for this song, sadly he isn't on the show anymore :'(

Seventh, I really love when you get to see characters that graduated. I loved seeing Mercedes and hearing her sing the hand jive at the beginning. Mike is also the greatest dancer ever so I'm glad they are going to be helping with Grease. Finn, is just amazing and I love being able to see him at McKinley and help out with all the kids there it is just amazing. I honestly think Finn found his place there. He also looks so much more attractive this season. Just saying...

Eighth, I LOVED LOVED LOVED THE HAND JIVE. I mainly liked it because of the dancing and such, but I love the hand jive, I think it's addicting and fun and it made me happy to see it on my favorite show ever. This was probably my favorite part of the whole episode besides finding out Blake gets the part of Danny well really no surprise there.

Ninth, I realized that 30 minutes into the episode you haven't seen Rachel, and the whole episode at that. It is absolutley possible to get through a whole entire episode of Glee without Rachel. But I really want to see Kurt, so I'm glad we will be seeing Rachel, and Kurt back at NYADA next Thursday.

I really just can't explain how much I loved Blake in this episode, I want to see more like now, but I'll have to wait. I'm excited to see what's in store for Blake and all the other characters as well as what is going to happen with Grease.

Yours truly,

Kristina Rene'

Blake Jenner's Poetic side.

I know that The Glee Project has been over for a long time and all but, because Blake will be on Glee tonight, I wanted to bring back his poetic side. He showed this off in the finale after he sang I'll be (which I loved) and I fell in love with this poem, I think it is purely beautiful. Any guy that can look like Blake and be poetic that's just amazing,(: (Find me one please) So now you're wondering where is the poem, well here ya go.

I'm they guy who will persist in his path, 
I'm the guy who will make you laugh. 
I'm the guy who strives to be open, 
I'm the guy that's been heart broken.
I'm the guy whose been on his own, 
I'm the guy whose felt alone.
I'm the guy who holds your hand, 
And, I'm the guy who will stand up and be a man. 
I'm the guy who tries to make things better,
I'm the guy whose the whitest half- Cuban ever. 
I'm the guy whose lost more than he's won,
I'm the guy whose turned but never spun.
I'm the guy that you couldn't see, 
I'm that guy and that guy is me. 

Beautiful isn't it? I truly love it, It's on my folder too, so yeah. I really think that Blake is all of these things. You could even tell from the show for the most part. I love how Blake really is a man, because when Nellie was feeling insecure about things he talked to her about it and made it better. Hopefully I'm not mixing fan- fiction with the facts (; I want to know what everyone else thinks of the poem, so feel free to comment and you can even tweet me about it,

I'll be posting more soon,(: I promise.

Yours Truly, 

Kristina Rene'

A Take On Mental Illness

Honestly, I never knew how much mental illness could affect my life until I met my best friend. I knew she wasn't the same as everyone else but, I never really knew what was wrong. Through our friendship she has opened up to me and I have learned a lot about mental illness, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and many other things.

I never actually knew how much I wanted to help people with this illness until I met this friend. She really has opened up a new world to my eyes. I thank her for this. I have realized that a lot of medical facilities will take mentally ill people out of these places and then they end up on the streets. Half the time they don't know what they are doing and then guess where they end up.... in the prison system. All because they aren't completely with it.

Many times I have been with my one friend through panic attacks and most are really different. It's hard to deal with them sometimes because like I said each one is different. I feel really bad though because most of the time I truly don't know how to deal with some of these situations. I have learned over time and I am slowly getting better at it.

Most of the time my friends and I will get her to focus on something else and it usually works. Just recently she was over at my house and it was her, another friend of mine, and me. She had told my one friend she didn't think she could stay. She didn't think she could handle it. We both tried to get her to think of something else and we would do something else to get her mind off of it because it usually works. We were all in my room and she asked me to sing "The Scientist" I pulled out my ipod and played the Glee Version. After it was over she asked me and my one friend if we disappointed her. Without a question my friend and I told her no.

I love this girl and I think there needs to be more ways to help people with mental illnesses. I know more than one person who suffers and life would be so much more simpler if we could find a cure. Unlike most people these kids; even adults, suffer from this illness. I want to be able to help in some way shape or form. Whether it be raising awareness or actually going towards a child physiologist degree in college. I'm not sure it's possible to find a cure, but then again anything could happen. I truly want things to be okay for the people  that suffer from any type of mental illness. Many face horrible depression which leads to suicidal thoughts and lots of people actually do harm themselves because of it. I think it's unfair that their brain makes them feel this way. Sure there is anti- depressants and other medications but these just make the person completely different from who they are. Many could see a therapists however, most people don't like therapists.

There needs to be more, there has to be a way, I don't think I'm going to be the one to find it, In fact, I know I won't. However I will do my best to help find the cure, by raising awareness or going towards a degree that  I can use to help people with mental illness.

Many people know that there is mental illness but they take the highway and act like it doesn't exist and push other issues like same sex marriage and other really pointless stuff. They act as if it doesn't matter. Well you know what, it does matter, to me it does. It's time people stop taking the highway to avoid this and to start turning around and trying to find a cure.

Yours truly, 

Kristina Rene'

Ps: I'm including an e-mail in which you can contact me for advice and such, It will be in the about me section as well as right here, feel free to do so. I may not get back right away because it's not my first email I check for things but I will get back eventually. 

jbfan4232@gmail.com

Something I miss..

Woah! I haven't blogged in forever. I've been so busy but I'm back! I'm going to try to get on a daily schedule of blogging because I need to do this more often. Any who let's get to what I really wanted to talk about.

Now Honestly there is a lot of things that I really miss whether it be friends, memories, or just tv shows. I am really really really missing The Glee Project, right now however, I'm super excited that when Glee comes back which is less than a week, Blake Jenner, will be on this most fantastic show,(: (eeep so excited, fan girl moments). People think I'm crazy because I miss this show so much but, maybe you will understand when I tell you why.

First off, I miss being able to listen to Nellie, Tyler, Abraham, Aylin, Charlie, Blake, Shanna, and pretty much everyone on the show sing. Yes, I know Charlie is coming out with an ep, and so is Shanna, but I need their voices, right now like every week. Which is why I wish that they sold the music from The Glee Project on Itunes or something. I would seriously love that!! It is just something about all of these people's voices that I love so much and I just wish I could hear them every week, like every Tuesday night at 10.

Second of all, I miss Tyler Ford's laugh!! No Lie, I think it is the most amazing laugh in the whole entire world, Yeah, that sounds a little creepy, I know, but oh well. I also miss being able to relate to some of the things that all of the contestants said on the show. For Instance, Blakes Poem during the Finale(Which I will be doing a blog post on if you want to know the whole poem), and when Nellie said "In Everyday life, I'm not necessarily the kind of person that digs deep." I just really miss these things, there really is a lot more, but I don't want to bore anybody so yeah(:

I'll be blogging more hopefully, and if you haven't go check out my YouTube where I have posted videos recently, and feel free to go check out my twitter, and my instagram the user name is the same as my youtube(:

Yours truly,

Kristina Rene' 

Youtube video and exciting news!!(:

Hey everyone!(: I just wanted to show you all the most recent video I uploaded. It's a cover of the Glee version of it's time,(: If you'd like to check that out then you can click here. I'm really happy with the way it turned out, I haven't been that happy with a song in forever, no really. But, anyway that's one thing I wanted to say now let's get on to the other news.

I think, I'm not entirely sure but in either a year or 2 years I will be trying out for the X factor in the U.S.A of course. I'm really excited, I was going to try out for the voice, but I feel that show is more rounded around adults versus teens. It's really exciting for me, being that I've never sang in a talent show or anything, never sang live. any of that, I've been in musicals although I've never had a lead (working on it) I know what it's like to be on stage though even if it is with people. But that's why I am waiting a year or 2 because I want to be able to be in a talent show and hopefully get a lead in a musical so I have more experience. That's some exciting news.

Next news, I actually have been writing a spoof song type thing for people to get to know me better to "Introducing me" which is from Camp Rock 2 but I only love it because I'm OBSESSED with Nick Jonas. (I'm also really happy the Jonas Brothers are back!!!) But anyhow I wanted the people that watch my youtube videos to get to know me a little better and what better way to do that then write a spoof song to Introducing me?

More news, I've been playing around with my camera and taking pictures and stuff and I really want to make a stop motion type video to "The scientist" and I'm in the process of working on it but I have no idea how it's going to turn out.

Even more news, I went to Homecoming last week and I guess I had a good time but dances aren't my thing so let's just say no more of those for a longggg time.... I would put some pictures on this post but I haven't put them onto my computer yet sorry.

I promise my next blog post will be a little bit more exciting because this one really isn't but the next one has some pictures that were taken by me(: so until then you can go look around my youtube and from there you could find my twitter, facebook, and instagram (: See you all soon

Yours Truly, 

                                                                                      Krissy

Inspiration Tag (:

Today, I uploaded a tag video to my youtube called the inspiration tag. It was created by my friend Hannah  and I. I didn't want the vlog to be extremely long so I am going to be giving more in depth answers to the questions right here. If you'd like to though feel free to check out the actually video here. 

Questions: 

1.) Who is a Youtuber that inspires you. 

Before I actually made this video I had to think quite hard about this because I wasn't truly sure of the answer. Then again I realized a lot of youtubers inspire me in a different way. Here's a list and why they inspire me. 

Tanya Burr: She is so nice and sweet and I want to meet her but she also isn't afraid to be herself. 

Jim Chapman: He's the same as Tanya really but I really do love him and he's extremely funny as well and that's always a plus. 

Joey Graceffa: Now I really love this guy whenever I'm having a bad day he will cheer me up because he is just hilarious. I wasn't to sure of why he inspires me but then I went back to thinking of how he truly is himself on camera and you can see it. 

Luke Conard: One of the youtubers that I watch that made me want to put music on youtube. I love Luke as a musician and I think he is extremely talented. 

Missglamorazzi (Ingrid): She is so sweet to people and she also isn't afraid to be herself and I feel she really shows that through her videos and that's why I love watching them so much. 

Shay Carl and the Shay Tards: Oh dear goodness, this family I discovered through looking up ways to get kicked out of Walmart and I found them hiding in rubbermaid bins. I had forgotten about them for the longest time because I just never paid any attention. I came across them again through and Ijustine video where Shay was on it and I was like oh that's Shay!! (Because he had lost so much weight) I instantly became hooked on his family. He gives great advice on lots of things and he has a good mindset as well as his wife. He also rubs that off on his kids and I feel that's a really good thing. His kids are really smart for their age and I really love that about them, it's just amazing, I want to grow up and be the parent just like him and his wife. and in another life they are my adopted parents because I love and respect them that much even though they have no clue who I am. 

Last but certainly not least 

Josh Sundquist: This man has gone through so much. I mean who can get cancer and only have a 50% chance to live, suffer from depression, make it to the Paralympics, and a whole bunch of other things and do what he does. He wrote a national #1 best seller, he's a motivational speaker and I just love him he gives great words to young kids and even adults and I truly respect him.

2.) Who is someone in real life that inspires you (Someone that you know personally) 

My mom: She has been with me ever since I was born. I love her, she's so strong and no matter what she supports me. I may get on her nerves but she still loves me. I honestly wouldn't be standing if it wasn't for her. 

My aunt: She gives me the theater background in my life that I love and I so thank her for. Without her I honestly wouldn't be singing and acting. She's also a very strong women and she's come a long way and I love her. 

3.) Who is a celebrity that inspires you? 

There is honestly a lot. here are just a few

Nick Jonas 

Nellie Veitenheimer 

Abraham Lim 

Aylin Byramoglu 

Charlie  Lubeck 

Greyson Chance 

Justin Bieber 

Max Schneider 

Damian McGinty 

Cameron Mitchell 

Jesse McCartney. 

4.) Have you ever had a teacher that inspired you? 

Yes I have and it was my 7th grade English teacher. I love her she is truly the most sweetest teacher I have ever had and she has that motherly instinct to her, She treats her students like they are her kids espically the ones that she became so close too. Without her I would've dropped writing stories because I used to love writing stories in 4th and 5th grade then I just stopped when I hit 6th grade and I picked it back up in 7th grade because of her and I am so thankful I did. My writing has became better than it is before and I even won a writing contest(: 

5.) Who is someone that inspires you in your profession: 

I really have no earthly idea. 

6.) What makes someone and inspiration? 

First of all they have to have a story to relate to, as well as being a very nice and kind person. Lots of people have stories to relate to and that's what makes them inspirational because they have been through it and they know what might or might not happen. Something is different for everyone but still they at least know a way to get through it and I feel that, that helps kids of younger ages look up to people. 

7.) Have you ever met one of your inspirations? 

Yes I have and I am so glad that I did. Her name is Lauren and she is a blogger under the username someonelikeyou18. I got to go on vacation with Hannah to Ohio and Hannah contacted her (Knowing that she lived not to far away from where we were) and asked if she would like to meet us. It was just a wonderful afternoon and If I could do it again then I totally would because I miss Lauren like crazy. Lauren if you're reading this I hope your having fun at Kent. (: 

8.) Who is an inspiring person you'd like to meet? 

Honestly, I want to meet all of my inspirations and those are inspiring people, just because I feel that it's something I have to do before I do or at least just a select few because it would be amazing to be able to say that I met ________ and that I talked to that person. 

9.) What is your favorite inspiration quote? 

No one is free even the birds are chained to the sky. 

Haters will say what they want but their hate will NEVER stop YOU from chasing YOUR dreams. 

-Justin Bieber 

Part of the Journey in Life is the learning you do along the way. 

-Nick Jonas 

10.) What is a song that inspires you? 

Who I am- Nick Jonas and the administration 

This song is just an amazing song and I love it so much because it really is just telling you that people should love you for who you are and not for someone you aren't. 

11.) Favorite inspirational movie. 

I don't have one, because most inspirational movies are sports related and I'm not the type of person that will sit and watch a movie like that. I mean some aren't bad but still make a movie about Josh Sundquist or something I'd watch that.(: 

12.) Have any friends that inspire you? 

Yes, All of of my friends inspire me in different ways. Mainly because all of my friends have a different story to relate to. They aren't my stories to tell so I won't but I respect them for helping me with my problems and I help them as much as I can with theirs. 

13.) Favorite Inspirational book 

Just Don't Fall by Josh Sundquist 

I just love this book and I learn something new every time I read it. It really is inspirational because you get to read all about the struggles that Josh faced throughout his childhood, I really love this book and I read it all the time, I honestly have read it more than like 10 times. I know crazy but I just love it so much. 

Well a little more in depth answers to the questions hope you enjoyed check out the original video and feel free to do the tags yourself. 

Yours truly,

Krissy 

Homecoming and other things in life.

Oh my goodness, it's been so long since I've written a blog post. I've been so busy with school, thank goodness this weekend I found time to record and edit a lot of videos and they will be put up soon, If only you could mass blog. Oh well, haha. So A few weekends ago I went to go buy my homecoming dress with my mom, ya know mom and daughter bonding time, it was quite fun. So here are some pictures of that day. 

This is my dress and I absolutely love it, 

Just so you can see the whole thing. 

I really thought I was going to like this one and I really didn't

My mom made me try this one on and as much as I liked it I couldn't see myself getting any other one except the red one.

I really like my dress and all, but I really am not a big fan of dances and stuff and I don't really want to go, but I guess I will. Well enough of this subject. 

I really hate being so busy I don't have time to do anything anymore. I wish I could blog every other day but I just don't have time. I'm always piled with homework and I can't find time to do anything. Anytime I get a chance to record videos and blog I do and this is the first time I've had a chance to in a long time. 

So far I'm liking highschool but I can't wait til Christmas and Thanksgiving that way I have time to do things. Anywho, I will be uploading videos throughout the next 2-3 weeks because I recorded and edited a massive amount of them this weekend. 

Before I start ranting about really random things I'm going to finish this blog post I'll write another soon hopefully not 2 weeks from now, but I'll make time. 

Yours truly, 

Krissy. 

Rambling time..

It's been a while since I wrote a blog post but I was just so busy, with going to school and then I got sick the second week of school, so I haven't been blogging much. I am so thankful that I am better now and so I decided to just write a blog post explaining the last two weeks. 

My first day of High school- Well, It was actually WAYYY better than I had expected and I'm so glad it was and the best part is I get to see a lot more of my friends thank gosh. I just hated that about Middle school, I never really saw my upperclassmen friends but, now I do everyday. I had only gotten lost once, thank goodness. I thought I would get lost a lot more but, nope. Now basically Highschool is pretty easy. I know it'll get harder a long the way though, Especially because I missed almost a whole week of school. 

So this past week, it was really just horrible, I got sick on Wednesday and I hated it. I couldn't talk and I was just so tired all the time, it just wasn't cool at all. It was because I had tonsillitis again for like the 3rd time, I know it's time to get them taken out but once I get it, it suddenly goes away and doesn't come back for a long time, but my mom and I are looking into getting them taken out so I don't have to deal with it anymore. 

This weekend though I was fully recovered although I didn't go anywhere or do anything because I didn't go to school Friday because I still couldn't talk. I just stayed home and hung out with my little sister. We made a  cake and sorted through some of my old things. In which I had found my big binder filled with pokemon trading cards, Yes pokemon cards.. I knew that it was just time to get rid of them after all I hadn't played with them ever since I was like 10 or 11 and I was the tomboy type girl. (Not anymore). I talked to my dad about selling them and he said we could put them online. As I was sorting through some of the cards I just couldn't get rid of some of the cards they just had this sentimental value to me. However we put a few of the sets that I had priced up on the internet and even though I don't play with them or anything, I am really sad to see them go. When we have to ship them off I know I will be sad because it means that I'm growing up and I'm not a little kid anymore. 

I also had the whole my "Brother" is graduating this year and I'm sad kind of disaster. Being that he is graduating it just made me really really sad because I know that we both aren't little kids anymore I mean truly, It feels like just yesterday we were and we were playing Marco Polo in a pool with friends it just makes me sad but I'm not going to worry about it because I know that even though he is graduating he still is a part of my life and I really enjoy thinking about the positives versus the negatives. 

Well, I think I'm done rambling now, talk to you all soon. 

Yours Truly, 

Krissy. 

Ps- Check out my cover/ music video to Cameron Mitchell's cover of Blackbird Filmed, edited and Directed by Hannah (Heroinsideme22 on Youtube) I'm really happy with how it turned out especially since Hannah didn't have much footage of me singing to work with, (: I still love her and thank her for doing this for me.

Highschool?

So, this is going to be the last post of my summer vacation, yikes.. I'm so nervous for Highschool, no lie. I don't really know why, I just am. I mean ever since I was little I couldn't wait to go to High school and now that it's finally here I'm like super nervous. Sure, I've got friends to get me through but I don't know it's just weird, I don't feel like it's time to be in high school just yet, Ya know?  I really think these four years are just going to fly by and then I'll be in college, studying to become a pediatrician. I'm not ready for that, I'm going to be leaving all of my friends and family behind and well yeah, I'm not even going to talk about college right now... Anywho it's just so weird for me to be going to high school, I'm going to have different routines and a lot of stress on my shoulders. I don't even know how much time I'm going to have for all of my videos, social media, and blogging, it's going to be hard but I'm going to try and keep doing it. So what are my last thoughts before I offically become a high schooler? I truly can't really answer that, I have a lot of thoughts, I'm nervous and all but when I sit here and think what it's gonna be like I think it's gonna be fine. My main thought though is that I am going to get lost. Over the years of my musicals that I've been in I have made friends with upper classmen so it really couldn't be too hard to get around and stuff should it? I don't really know but hopefully not. I had an orientation and what not but that still isn't enough for me to know where my classes are, Oh well, I guess I'll get around..

These are mainly my thoughts before I officially enter high school. I think I'm ready and I sure hope so. Well, I might be able to write a post tomorrow. Goodbye Everyone.

Yours truly,

Krissy.

Ps, Really sorry for the short post I just don't really know what to write about this because well, It's all just jumbled up in my mind and I don't want it to be all jumbled up on my blog. I'll write a post soon,

Nellie Veitenheimer

I was recently on Youtube well, I'm always on Youtube but anyway, I was just curious if anyone had posted Nellie Veitenheimers new original song "Lights". There were a couple of them and I just clicked on one to listen to the song and do the occasional and scroll through the comments. As I was reading down there was this really long comment that was standing up for Nellie and saying this stuff so I wanted to see the comment in which this person started ranting about. I clicked the show comment button and it had said That Nellie only wants money and she doesn't even care about her fans. I was about to flip out about it and comment back but then, What good of a person would I be? I had went back and read the big long paragraph that the person had written in reply to this. This was the main jist of it. 

"That's both an unfair and untrue statement. Of course Nellie cares about her fans otherwise she wouldn't bother re tweeting them or thanking them at all. If an artist writes a beautiful original song, do u not think they deserve to be paid for it? If an author writes a terrific book or an artist paints a masterpiece, do you think they don't deserve compensation for the time and energy they put into their work?"

I totally 100% agree with this, What Musician doesn't deserve money for their hard work of writing a song? Surely Nellie took a long time to figure out how to make this a wonderful song that people would enjoy. I just wish some people could take the time to realize that. I honestly don't care what people have to say. Nellie Veitenheimer IS and ALWAYS will be an inspirational person not only to me but to her fans all around the world. I know that she will always love her fans because with out them she wouldn't be able to do what she does. Honestly people can just get over themselves because they are just jealous of her.

I think I'm going to stop with this little rant thing before I get to out of control. As always Nellie you will be an inspiration to many many many girls out there and you're music inspires us more I don't care what people say. You truly has a voice that really is rare. I could recognize it in a heartbeat and thats what I love about it. It just speaks to me, If I need inspiration, if I'm upset I put on a song of yours and boom, I feel better so I thank you so much for that. I honestly don't think you'll ever read this either but if you do then keep doing what you do and you must know your true fans love you now and forever. <3
Yours truly,
Krissy 

Throwbacks and New Beginnings

Trick or treating with my best friend Zach

5th birthday party or maybe 6th with my bff Zach

I wanted to help clean the bathroom.

mini golfing and striking a pose as I always did when I was younger

My last bike ride with training wheels. 

So today is what most people on instagram would call tbt (Throw back Thursday) I'm always so overwhelmed seeing people's pictures from years ago. As I was on my computer uploading photos to Facebook I just had to go through all of my old pictures that are on my laptop. I almost started to cry as I was looking over most of them (These only being a few). It just brought back so many memories for me. More than I though possible for a day. Somehow I wish I could go back to my younger self. I feel there was more times when I wasn't always so upset and unhappy with life. I loved having my picture taken and now I despise every time my mother gets the camera and tries to take a picture of me. I desperately wish for my guy best friend back, to be always happy and smiling, helping my parents with stuff, having more energy, learning how to ride a bike without training wheels and so on. The list is just endless.

The reason I almost cried looking at some of these pictures is because I miss the memories I made as a kid and the friends I had. Looking at these pictures and some of the things I do I see my little sister because she acts the same way I did as a child. That just makes the pictures more emotional. Looking back at all these I know I'm not a little girl anymore. In 2 years I'll be able to drive and in 4 I'll be heading out to college to do something that I'm not even sure I want to do which is become a doctor. It scares me. 2 years I'll be a licensed driver, surely that should be fun, but why do these things scare me? I'm scared because I'm not so little anymore and I'm growing up way faster then what I had intended to. Driving is going to give me some freedom and I won't have to ask my mom to drive me every where which I love our drives together simply because we are so close. In 4 years I'll be leaving for college and I'm leaving my mom, dad, sister and brother behind, the people that I've been so close to for my whole life. That's mainly why it scares me.


Even though sometimes I wish for all the childhood back, when I truly think about it, I don't truly want it. If I hadn't acted the way I did and said what I said when I was little then I wouldn't be who I am today. Those things only made me stronger. Now going into high school I'm just nervous and scared, I'm ready for a new beginning and I feel that middle school really held that back for me. I'm ready to start all over and just live with the friends that I have now and have them as well as my family drive me through this so called journey of life.

Yours Truly,
Krissy

Ps: I've been really loving Nellie Veitenheimer's new song Lights and especially this line.
What is fair in this fake world of reality 
I am scared that you'll go home and forget about me 
Is it yet windy enough for the city to just blow you away 
Have you gathered enough facts for you and I to be okay 
If the high road is the road we must take 
Well instead I've now decided we don't need roads 
We'll float away 
It just makes so much sense to me.

The Glee Project

So, Yesterday was of course Tuesday. Something didn't feel right to me. Every Tuesday this summer I was devoted to watching The Glee Project. There were many times when I got upset with Ryan Murphy for sending someone home (Ex. Nellie, Charlie, Abraham, Tyler, Dani) Even though I really would've liked Aylin to win the show I do believe that everyone that got as far as they did had a chance to win.

So yesterday night when it was 10 pm I knew there was no Glee Project but I still felt there was after watching it the whole summer, I'm very proud of Blake and I think he's going to make a good character on glee because he can act, I'm just hoping he can harmonize with other people. (Romanticality week with Ally). I do feel however that this seasons cast of the show was much more relate able than season 1. I am still very inspired by people in the season one cast like Damian McGinty and Cameron Mithchell. Nellie, Tyler, Abraham, and Aylin all also inspire me because of their stories.



Now, the story behind my about me... I had gotten a chance to talk to both Abraham Lim and Tyler Ford on a tiny chat with some people from twitter it was indeed the best night of my life, it just felt real, ya know? like I was talking to them face to face even though we are so many miles away from each other. Abraham was who we talked to first and he had left and I was about to leave to because it was 12:00 in the morning but then Tyler popped up on the screen and I had to stay, It was a double feature for me. Tyler left to go make food but started doing a twit cam session and I wanted to see if I could get answers to my questions. He indeed responded to all of my twitter questions. One in particular was "Is it crazy to have dreams of selling out Madison Square Garden even at the age of 14," He had told me that it wasn't crazy, then he said look at Justin Bieber he wanted to sell out MSG and he did at the age of 16, so it's not crazy. I was in shock and so surprised it was the most amazing thing anyone has ever told me. Everyone else tells me it's a crazy dream but Tyler Ford doesn't think so. I think that's pretty amazing.

I'm done with this little ramble that doesn't really make sense but I'm hoping I'll get better at this blogging thing.
Yours Truly,
Krissy

Exciting News!

I am so pleased to announce that I now have a blog thanks to my lovely and dear friend Hannah. It was so nice of her to put my blog together. Never using a blog before in my life I had no idea how to set one up luckily she did. Anywho, I'd just thought that now having a blog would be easier to connect with people, respond back, and even open up on a more personal level. I thank everyone who watches my videos and I'll be posting more soon as well as trying to keep up with this blog because school starts for me in a week. 
Thanks, 

Krissy. 

Cover of Demi Lovato's 'Catch Me'

Hey everyone! I just wanted to post a link to my most recent cover of 'Catch Me' by Demi Lovato. My friend Hannah had asked me to cover it and I had also been planning on covering it, so I uploaded it. I'm really proud of this came out. Anyways, if you'd like to watch the video please click 'here'.

Thanks,

Krissy.