As people we all have at least one influence. Sometimes you have many for various reasons. I've had plenty of musical influences throughout my life. The thing that hurts the most though is when you have to loose the one that you are closest to, the one that is the main influence for something (In my case music)
I lost my grandpa. It was one of the hardest things that could've happened to me. Surely, I've lost people from my family but none that were this inspiring to me. He was a talented man. He is one of the main reasons for me becoming interested in music. If it weren't for him and various other people in my family than I more than likely wouldn't be singing, wouldn't be interested in music. I would more than likely be playing sports or something.
I'm really glad to have a family that is so musically oriented; my grandpa, my mom, my dad, my aunt, my uncle, well you get the point. If it weren't for them, I more than likely wouldn't be singing. wouldn't be doing music, wouldn't be on the crazy journey to get discovered.
My grandpa was a very talented and inspiring man. He was in the military,he fought in Vietnam, was a quarter master of military bands, he met plenty of famous people (Frank Sinatra, cast of three's company and more) He could play any instrument he picked up. Even though he could play pretty much every instrument he preferred percussion. Like I said pretty talented.
I was really devastated when we got the call saying that he was gone. Both me and my mom just broke out in tears crying and the worst part for me was when we had to tell my little sister the next morning when she woke up. I honestly didn't know how to deal with it, he was gone,my main influence for music, he was just gone. It's strange though, I didn't want to go to the funeral or the viewing, I didn't think I could handle it. I went anyway and I made it through. I'm glad I did though, I learned two things that day;
1.) He couldn't have looked anymore younger in his military uniform, he had said he wanted to be buried in it and I was sure glad he did say it.
2.) Music and life are exactly the same. A song eventually has to end and so does life. Even if that one piece of music has a repeat sign in it, it's only designed to repeat once. Life is very very precious so live it to the fullest, just don't take it to seriously, no one gets out alive anyway.
I know that everyone has to leave sometime, we are put on this earth to do something make something of ourselves and eventually everyone's time runs out. We can't all live forever. I've grown to accept the fact that he's gone. Sometimes I will break out in tears just thinking about him because I miss him and I know that he's gone. I just wish I could tell him about all the things I accomplish musically but I can't. It's hard moving on and finding closure, but, I've made it through and I'm proud of myself for doing so. I never forget about him though I know that he's watching over me and being there for everything I do. I know he's proud of me for doing so.
So to all the people who loose their greatest influences, or just an influence for something they do in life, it'll be alright. You will get through it. Everyone at some point in their life goes through this and everyone gets through it. Just keep that in mind.
With much love,
Kristina Rene'
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