March Music Madness!!

Last month I put together a post of music that I was loving at the moment. Today I thought I would return and do this as a monthly thing. I'm super excited for this months music because I found myself needing muisc way more this month than ever before.


1.) PomPoms by the Jonas Brothers.
Yes I'm cheating a little this actually came out in April but I don't care I still love it! First off I'm super duper excited that my boys are back!! I love the Jonas Brothers They were my favorite band growing up and I just loved them and I still listen to their old music everday. There is something about their music that makes me happy.
The thing that I love about this song is the marching band music in the background. I'm a sucker for big band music from the 1940's and the fact that this just has the band swing and amazingness in the background I have to love it, It isn't fake techo music it is real genuine instruments.

2.) Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
Maroon 5 is an amazing band and I love this song! I know this song is a tad old but who cares. It is a really good song. I also love the video for this song, because the whole Karaoke setting, I see myself doing something like this. Yeah a tad awkward. I really love listening to this song though. I just love the way my voice blends in with Adam's and it's pretty amazing! I think the old Maroon 5 stuff is so much better than the orginal because it kind of has a jazz ring to it.

3.) Titanium David Guetta ft Sia
I really love the power and emotion behind this song. I love listening to the lyrics and it is just the best thing ever. I love the happines that this song brings me because I feel empowered to do something and not let other people bug me. A lot of songs can probably do this to me, but this one is the one for me to go to recently.

4.) If I Were A Boy: Beyonce
Now this song is a bit old, I really love the rawness in Beyonce's voice when she sings this song. I don't know why, but it just amazes me that beyonce is so talented and everytime I hear this song I am reminded of how talented she truly is.

5.) Landon Austin's cover of Not Over You
I really enjoy listening to Landon Austin just because he is such an amazing musician. He really surprises me with the songs he sings and everything he does. Just another inspiration to me. When he sings, I just die on the inside because he's pretty amazing.

6.) Landon Austin's cover of Drops of Jupiter
Yes another Landon Austin one. I find myself listening to this song a lot. Pretty much everyday. I just can't get over the fact that Landon Austin is so flipping talented! He just amazes me!

7.) Lightning: Alex Goot
I really like this song, I think Alex Goot is a very talented musician. He inspires me a lot. This song just makes me happy and I just love the lyrics because whenever I sing them I feel that I can relate to all the words he sings about.

8.) Lights: Nellie Veitenheimer
Yes, I know she released this a while ago. When she did I was obsessed with it, but now, oh my gosh. I'm so much more obsessed with it, I listen to it everyday. Nellie is so talented and whenever I hear her sing, I'm reminded of that. I love this song so much because it just has some strong lyrics.

9.) Luke Conard's Cover of When I Was Your Man
Words can not explain how surprised I was when I saw Lukes video for this and his voice. I just felt that he knew exactly what he was singing and the emotion was truly there. I love Luke, I think he's talented and an amazing person. I just never really realized how much emotion he really puts into all the music he sings until he sang this song. I just really love it, and I can't get over the fact at the pure emotion in this song. It's real and I'm pretty much obsessed.

Well thank you all so much for reading this and go check out these amazing songs by all of these people it's worth it. (They are in no particular order)

With much love,

Kristina Rene'

"I'm scared that you'll go home and forget about me"

These last couple of weeks have definitely been the best so far. I haven't felt depressed, I haven't missed him nearly as much, I got to see some old friends, I really honestly think that I'm getting better. It still hurts me that he's gone but It's something I will have to get over and I will and I am trying my hardest to do so. It's not the easiest thing to come out of such a deep slump of life and then try and find things to make you happy.

I can honestly say, the depression I had faced in the past months was hard and it was the most horrible experience of my life. I didn't know how to deal with anything, I'd walk to school with a smile on my face and when I got home, I'd just be bare, and broken. Some nights I would cry and for various reasons and others just listen to the most depressing music, it wouldn't cheer me up and I don't know why I did it. 

In the few months of this horrible time, I honestly didn't think anything was ever going to change and that I would be like this for ever, I didn't know what to think. I had no clue how long the depression was going to last or even if it would ever go away. I couldn't believe that I let myself feel that down, that dark, that sad. It wasn't fair to the happy me on the inside that wanted to come out. 

I've always felt good about something in life and the last few months of being depressed, I longed to be happy again. I missed the feeling of actually being able to smile and laugh and know that the feeling was real and that it wasn't fake. It was something that I needed, something that I couldn't find through anything. Whenever I felt sad or upset in the past, I'd listen to music, talk to my mom, watch YouTube videos, skype and text friends. The usual things that could cheer someone up. The past couple of months nothing seemed to work. I didn't know what to do. 

I couldn't believe that I let myself get like this, it wasn't to the point where I wanted to hurt myself or anything but it was so bad that I wasn't myself and that hurt me the most. I didn't want to feel that way that I did. 

The good thing is, I'm getting so much better. I've felt happy lately, I've been singing so much more than I used to even before being so depressed, I've been looking forward to going places and just having fun, I've came out of my shell and I'm so ready for the feeling of being happy again, I'm ready to feel free and to be able to live my life. 

I'm so excited because in 12 days, I'll be in the city of my dreams on a day trip with my mom. A blog post to come.. but it's a surprise, and I couldn't be more happier. 

   

With much love, 

Kristina Rene'